Friday, July 27, 2012

Family Circus Regurgitated


Bring your clothes, they said. Your new suits
and make-up which will make them see.
You know, the ones; the ones who "matter" the
only ones who see and say like Simon.
They are robots but they don't know it. We
do but we won't say it...If we do we die and
melt with the steel;  the broken ones who
no one sees; no one cares. But because
we were raised by wolves
we pretend we don't care.
So. we bring our shiny suits and smiles;
our perfect mates with no guile. We will
smile in your country clubs and your marriages.
You know we are there and you like our tricks; it
makes for fodder on Etv, but we won't be there
with OUR families in suits or you will openly dump us
near the country fence. Whether tied or berated,
crucified on a ragged fence, you will still say, "Well
he shouldn't have said, "I love his horse sense.
I love the way he sees my face."
You will look underneath your nasty, dirty skirt and find a way
to justify your feeling of being safe. And when we die
by the hand you gave the knife
either by voice or the sanctified, fucking knife,
you will not recognize God's given grace; you'll only see
the rotten core of your rigid boring, judgmental life.

skin

My body literally aches to be touched. Yearns for flesh touching flesh. Hugging myself in the fetal position no longer works.

John Wayne


ahh Suicide Girls


Bite Me


Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Gnash


You know what I want?
I want cigarette smoking to be okay, to hold hands
in public, freedom to choose my friends, and sex
on the beach. And I don't mean that stupid drink
you order to sound experienced. Sex.
The down and dirty kind.
I want to look at a beautiful girl across the bar
and not wonder who I'll have to answer to, reassure,
console, control, apologize to, or get sterilized.
I want to seduce her with a look, take her face in my
hands and hungrily take in all she will allow. Come
away slick and smiling, smelling her on my skin.
I want my past to stay there, stop asking me when,
when, when! Fuck you and fuck her too. Stop telling
me I can't, you shouldn't, don't, stop, please, me, me, me!
I've had enough of politically correct relationships and
candy-coated therapists, diet cokes, sugar-free cocaine strips.
What I want is freedom from your voice, where's your life?
Get a wife. Try moving out of your folk's house
you can only sleep with Mom for so long. Get off the tit.
I want fat to be okay, ugly too, going back to school,
fuck your youth.
Most of all I want to see your pissed off expression 
when you read this
shocked and scared it might be you

Pellets


That's me; rolling and clanking
over the dirty pavement.
The empty beer can, a disregarded
dislocated chunk of metal.
That sound brings a tear to my eye;
clogs my throat. It's the sound my
heart makes every day in and out.
Tin Man. Robot. Soulless.
Shot through like a stop sign
on a country road; left behind-
lawless carnage.
Who sees? Who notices? Only
the "cop" or city "man" looking to
fix his status; fix the ugly sign.
Does it matter how I break? How I bleed?
Only the blessed are seen.

the making of a Monster


Shelter from the Rain


Tuesday, July 24, 2012

embrace


Spawn

Playing with my Sharpie; MJB

aw


Kate Kane; Batwoman

My latest obsession. Finally a safe place to aim my Sapphic love.

yum

Tomboy? Yes. Tomboys? Yes please.

Unguis


Salty moss falls from my eyes
its painful exodus tracks through
my skin, leaving grooves of disease.
I'll take out my claws; clean out the crud.
(Then all They will see is colored confetti.)
What's this shit under my nails black as mud?
What's this fragrant smell?
Am I alone? Is this hell?

Forgotten party and oozing orbs, I'm looking
for my friend, my razor, my savior.
With knuckles bruised and caked with
ebony liquor I'll dig and dig
looking for purchase, the surface,
Me, Myself, and I.

Are these rickets I see? Is this Me?
Have I known?
Bony knees and broken feet, I've
been hobbled, reduced, and manured.
Digging in my sink, it's Botox I seek
or a prescription blow torch.
My lips a bruised and lurid blue,
a delicate heart shape pulled apart.

Who is that in the mirror?
Who is she? (Who me?)
Am I asleep or dreaming?
She doesn't recognize me or I her,
following me in and out of
the mirrors I hold in my hands.
One I use for looking, one for cutting
into these domestic doldrums.

A place to play is what I need.
An escape with the girl of my dreams;
to scare away the ghost-
See her? She's watching me.

Saturnalia

I crawled out of bed after you left,
still bathed in your salty warmth.
Tangled in the sheets I found
your t-shirt and slipped it on,
the scent of your skin trapped in the cotton.
In the bathroom you left a heart
in the steam on the mirror.
I thought about last night, the way
you laughed at me as I nuzzled your neck,
fumbling with your jeans. Your dark,
curly hair smelled of the greenest grass
after a summer storm and I
got lost in its fragrant moisture.
You left a violet mark
at the hollow of my throat and
I laughed at the indulgence of it.
Your sable eyes and creamy, olive skin
fill my mind’s eye and I wait
with shivery anticipation for your return.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Spork

I' m tired of all your words, your
dim illumination you call enlightenment.
Your promises are not worth
the tampons they are written on.
Your feathered lashes bat about
tiresome dialogue, worn out
promises, and that ass dusted
with the ash of your exes. No
one cares about your conquests
or the muscle you think and talk with.
Labels and your grandiose god 
complex is all you are; chasing a 
golden shower of crowning bullshit.
When I see you coming
I run
into the arms of the first
bi-man-trans-cunnilingus
abomination I can find.

Elektra

     Elektra, Marvel Comics; by MJB, a.k.a. Brit B.

Whatever doesn't kill you....


Tank Girl

                                                       It's a Tank Girl kind of day, don't you agree?

Tank Girl

                                                                         Tank Girl <3

Shark


Time to go. Back inside.
Away from all the pretty
flowers. Away from seaside
walks. Sheltered from scented
candles, whispered promises of
"I love you". Promises. Promises;
stupid fucking tokens from shaking
hearts, selfish tongues licking 
selfish lips revealing razor teeth.
Memories ooze and expose the 
dirty scab love once opened over
that slick spot of dementia.
Another flower opened by another
drooling mouth, one more lie like
the yawning maw of a great white killer.

I Am


I am a Boi
I am a girl
I am soft
I am tough as nails
I am a vampire
and an angel
I am a hater
and a lover
I am simple and complex
I am a wolf on the prowl
bound but with One
I am rage
and blessed Love
I am Yours
I am Ice
I am Fire
I am kind
and brutal
I spit blood
and know of forgiveness
I am Yours
and You are Mine
I am here
I am here

Sunday, July 22, 2012

By MJB, a.k.a. Brit B., 2008

untitled


The bloody stamp
swipes my lips 
dripping into the collection jar
of my youthful dreams;
hanging from the cliffs of my
Fuck U graduation.
I smile with diabolical glee
keeping the bitterness down
by slamming back my pride
like a shot from the bar
in a dirty glass.
My hands slip and slide
reaching for your sweet spot-
in a dream, a monster chasing
me in my sleep-
never catching you
it's only in my mind.
Aching for the fruit you gave
but now sell to another.
Remembering its tangy goodness
dripping from my jaw
Tick Tock
Time runs out of time. And
I watch you cross yourself
and wish for freedom

Boogeyman


The cold, the storm, the
night, it comes to haunt
my soul. The creep and
crawl of each imagined
fright, the man with teeth;
the steel to steal my
innocence, my life, my little girl.
I imagine him or them coming
in the night, afraid when they
come, wondering how-
Darkness tells me what I need
to know, the lack of hope, the
TV soap, a time to kill, a
window show. Like a Jackson
Pollack, a Hitchcock movie scream
it's a crack inside my mind
the kind behind the screen 
it can't be seen.
The little girl clutches her head
never waking from her dream.