Staub

She walks into the room, all smiles; sunlight glinting

off a bare shoulder. Hips cut from marble, breasts perfect and,

of course,

supple.

Radiance in female form; the sun a dull bulb.

Being noticed is her intent, her resource, her dark power. 

I do. I do. I do.

My intent, my dark downfall.

I forget it's my own dried blood upon my sleeve, my own sticky

trail trailing me. She floats over it undaunted, unfeeling. She

embraces me all teeth and tendrils. Ink for blood writing all over

my broken heart with her notes of fuck you in the font of love.

Glass blows through my eyes.

Hope, a serial killer, with a killer grin. A kiss between slick lips

wet

with the promise of finding home.

For my lovely Sapphic Lovers

prick

Go ahead and bite me. I've been bitten before. See? here and here

see there, see the road maps of knives I've loved before? Show 

your shiny fangs, embed them in my skin, I may swoon, see here

and there where my tender skin parts and pants.

Your smile sounds like horror to my ears, they hear the pulse of your heart and my blood boils

wondering how red would look on the floor.

So, come on girl, throw away the fucking love notes you leave all over

the walls and stalls and cars and bars, not one word sounds real to

me. see here, see that smudge on my lips, it's the shit-stained broken bones and 

borders you called home. 

Come, love me fucker, lay your hand on my heart and remove it if you can.

outsourced

Remember when you took me swimming and you said,

between breaths,

I will be right here, by your side, come hell or high water? I held on, dear, for

life knowing you knew I feared the water and things I could not see.

I never imagined I'd look back and find myself shipwrecked,

crack-lipped and corpse-surfing back to shore.

You knew I bled from the house to the fence as you took my suit

from the line, watching dorsal fins from the corner of your eye.

A champagne kiss convinced me the water was warm and your

heart in place,

suddenly denying,

you'd placed it in another's satin box of stained jewels,

dripping off the neighbor's greener grass, that bush

of sharp and tangled betrayals. A kiss I saw from beneath

my own thigh, my own pink demise.

I swim with a soaked and dripping faggot clenched between my teeth,

knowing it's sealing my lungs hoping it'll be done

before I reach the sand, too afraid to let go.

let go.

torn asunder.

Oh, COME ON! I'm a total doll.

Glass eyes. Fixed smile. Cloth heart.

from my heart

I beg to differ, Reo Speedwagon, I CAN fight this feeling. Pussies.

mucilage

tempestuous lovers signal me from dime-store truck stops and

red-light corners the moment my eyes slam shut

spotlights turn to blood beneath my delicate skin

gravity bends my cot through a keyhole as

the taste of iron coats my tongue

i remember the jagged curves and ruined clefts of your

P.O.W. promises trickling through the bars and i drank

with glee hoping your poison would finally 

break free and curdle my cell to cheese

i wake each day to cobwebs in my eyes and the artificial 

light from your heart reminding me there is no more

only symbols and signs and roadblocks and whores

and ditches and bitches galore and mediocre rest

stops on the sand from here to eternity